Lu Yao sat in front of the desk, his fingers trembling as he drew the last end to his work.
The first thing he did when he got up from his desk was to throw the ballpoint pen in his hand out of the window.
Later, he went to the bathroom and washed his face with hot water, and when he saw himself in the mirror, he couldn't help crying.
After 6 years of field research and 0 years of writing behind closed doors, Lu Yao finally completed this million-word novel.
This literary masterpiece is "The Ordinary World", which won the third Mao Dun Literature Award in China.
"Ordinary World" describes the story of Sun Shaoping, a peasant child struggling on the poverty line in the seventies and eighties of the twentieth century, who moved from the countryside to the city.
After experiencing the impermanence of work, the death of his lover, and the destruction of his appearance, Sun Shaoping is still full of infinite love for life.
Life is a journey, and you don't have to live with a sad face and a heartbeat.
Go to sleep when you're sleepy, rest when you're tired, and let everything happen naturally.
It is the gentlest power in the world to be able to allow and learn to accept.
And a person who is truly strong in his heart never lacks this strength.
01
Sun Shaoping had excellent grades at the age of seventeen and was recommended to study in the county high school.
He wears pants with patches from two years ago and can't afford even the worst dishes for every meal.
And those students from the city are not only well-dressed, but they can eat a white bun at every meal.
Sun Shaoping was very envious and secretly dissatisfied, especially against the squad leader Gu Yangmin.
Gu Yangmin's grades are top-notch and his family is well-off, but Sun Shaoping looks at him unpleasantly everywhere.
For a long time, Sun Shaoping had low self-esteem and was extremely face-saving, and he lived a very screwed life.
And the only person who can bring him psychological comfort is Hao Hongmei, a classmate from a poor family.
Later, Hao Hongmei, who he had a crush on, suddenly got "good" with the squad leader Gu Yangmin, and Sun Shaoping felt the pain and confusion of life for the first time.
In order to help him get angry, his friend deliberately found someone to beat Gu Yangmin.
However, Gu Yangmin did not hold a grudge, but treated them as equal and friendly as usual.
This is Sun Shaoping's first awakening on the road of life, he found that Gu Yangmin not only has a superior family background, but also has a good character, and he is an ordinary person.
It's not a negative compromise, it's an honest acceptance.
Some differences between people, such as family of origin and appearance, are objective and unsurpassable realities.
However, what kind of person a person can become and what kind of path he can take does not depend entirely on these innate conditions.
Unique thoughts and noble character will also make an ordinary person different.
When he figured this out, a sense of relief arose as he stopped hiding his poverty and was honest with his classmates.
He likes to read and has unique opinions, and even Gu Yangmin looks at him differently.
This world is unfair, some people are born with a golden key, and some people are born with a heavy load.
If you always compare yourself with others, it is tantamount to using other people's yardsticks to measure your own life.
Instead of taking the time to look up to others, focus on yourself.
Try to accept your ordinariness and spend more time managing yourself.
When a person wants to become better from the bottom of his heart, the potential in his body will be slowly released, and he will have a greater possibility to live an unrestricted life.
02
After graduating from high school, Sun Shaoping returned to the village to work as a farmer and a teacher.
After the school was forced to disband, he broke into Huangyuan City alone and became a laborer.
This is a new life test for Sun Shaoping.
His back was crushed by the stones, and he often jolted from one site to another.
Life beat Sun Shaoping, but gave him a piece of candy.
In Huangyuan City, he reunited with Tian Xiaoxia, who had been admitted to university.
Although the two have completely different living circumstances, they have come together because of like-mindedness.
With Xiaoxia's help, Sun Shaoping became a coal miner, and finally did not have to live a life of exile on the construction site as in the past.
Just when Sun Shaoping was immersed in the gifts given by life, Xiaoxia jumped into the flood in order to save people and died suddenly.
The best thing in life was destroyed, and an unprecedented despair enveloped Sun Shaoping.
He couldn't accept the reality, became numb and silent, and lost a lot of weight.
When mining coal underground, Sun Shaoping was like a bull who didn't want to die, as if it was through this heavy physical labor that he could temporarily forget his pain.
Another spring is coming, and after going to the well, Sun Shaoping is lying on the grass and looking at the spring on the mountain, and a thought gradually becomes clear in his mind.
Life is like the four seasons, after surviving winter, spring will naturally come.
The joys and sorrows of human beings are like the four seasons of nature, always moving forward and never stopping.
If you have been injured in the winter, don't forget to open a window to your heart, because that will be where the spring light comes in.
Thinking of this, his depressed heart gradually opened, and his walking steps became much brisker, and Sun Shaoping finally devoted himself to normal life.
In the world of ordinary people, there is no day of peace.
Everything goes well is accidental, and love is not the norm.
You can grieve or cry, but you can't keep consuming yourself for people and things you can't change.
Otherwise, our zest for life will be depleted and trapped in an endless cycle of suffering.
And life doesn't end in a cyclical way, it keeps going forward until the last moment of our life.
Allow yourself to collide with good fortune, but also allow misfortune to come suddenly.
Allow everything to happen so that you don't get trapped in the same place by the gains and losses of life.
03
On this day, Sun Shaoping and his co-workers were working in the mine when a large piece of gangue fell from the top of their heads, and it was about to hit the heads of the workers next to them.
He was quick and pushed his partner away, but his face was hit by a stone and he fell in a pool of blood, and Sun Shaoping was rushed to the provincial hospital.
Although he was not in danger of his life, he could not see anything in his right eye.
Coincidentally, Jin Bo's sister Jin Xiu is interning at the provincial hospital.
During the three months that Sun Shaoping was hospitalized, Jin Xiu took care of him meticulously.
Sun Shaoping can finally see again, but he is left with a terrible scar on his face.
Surprisingly, Jin Xiu expressed his love to Shaoping at this time.
And Sun Shaoping's sister and boyfriend also plan to use their connections to transfer him from the dangerous mining area to the provincial capital to work.
Sun Shaoping rejected Jin Xiu's love, and also rejected the kindness of his sister and boyfriend.
He knew that Jin Xiu was beautiful, enthusiastic, and like Xiaoxia, she was also a literate college student, and she would undoubtedly become a wife who made men proud.
However, there is always a sense of generational separation when the two get along.
When he came to work in the provincial capital, he could not only enjoy convenient living conditions, but also not have to risk his life to go underground to mine coal.
However, the big city may be suitable for his sister and brother-in-law, but he does not have a sense of belonging here, and he may not be able to find his own happiness.
He began to miss the warm monsoon wind in the mines, and the green and yellow mountains full of life.
He has sweated and dribbed blood in the Daya Bay mine, and he has an indescribable emotion for the black oily coal.
He knew he would probably be dealing with coal for the rest of his life.
人赤條條而來，終將赤條條而去。
In just a hundred years, there is no special significance, our experience of life, our inner feelings, constitute the whole meaning of life.
There is no best choice in life, and there is no standard answer to happiness.
You can plant flowers in the mountains, or you can drink tea in the downtown area, as long as your heart is peaceful and steady, this is not a kind of happiness.
Follow your heart, do what you like, love the people you like, unite your body and mind, and live in the moment, and you will not live up to this hundred years of life.
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In everyone's life, they will encounter all kinds of setbacks and pains.
But what really determines the quality of your life is your inner choices and attitudes.
Writer Cindy Fincher said:I would allow everything to happen naturally and see it as the landscape of life.
As an ordinary rural youth, Sun Shaoping struggled forward in the turbulent waves of the great changes of the times.
He can accept his ordinariness, but he is not willing to be mediocre, and heals himself while being injured.
In the mystery and impermanence of fate, he lived as his own ferryman.
And ordinary people like us may not be able to become the ideal for the rest of their lives.
But so what?
When you go all out to every obstacle in your life, you're already remarkable.